mu says

WELL kids, here i am, kicking off with the first rant of this blog!

i must be incredibly brave or incredibly stupid, and i think it's the latter, to make a decision like i did but still. i don't regret it. yet.

THE STORY IS... from the beginning...

ok. i auditioned for musical right. and somehow, by some FREAK of nature, (or maybe bang and jonathon were just in a good mood), i got in lah. so anyhow, i realised tt the WORKSHOP clashed with mep and choir and my saturday. and besides, mrs lim was saying tt SEC 4 IS VERY IMPORTANT. THINK CAREFULLY.

so i thought carefully, and i prayed carefully. and somehow God just didn't seem to give me an answer. but anyhow. THE RATIONAL ME, THE ONE WHICH WANTS, LIKE, 7 POINTS, says no wayyyy.. it's 3 days before prelims.. so i decided not to participate. simple as that. just tt i was still rather disturbed and. didn't have the peaceful feeling one has after making a hugeeee decision. (and i really did want to be in.)

so today juu (this sec 3 kid who's also in musical) and i went to tell nat lim tt we were dropping out. mrs lim was like okay muriel.. i understand.. then she says THE PUNCHLINE: "actually there were a few parts that we wanted to cast you as... but we understand." i say, i felt soooo sad after that la! like i was REALLY REALLY missing out. meanwhile, she told juu that she should take part coz it would be REALLY COOL. and blah blah.

ANYWAYYYY. she made juu and me wait for her for like an hour plus.. then by that time i was like NOOOOOO muriel! bad decision! baaaaad decision.. and i started thinking about people's advice..
1. charmaine - JOIN LAH!
2. cryssie-poo - i think you should focus on your studies *nods head like a wise old sage
3. mon bong - if i were you i wouldn't join.. but i always say.. follow your dreams.! however, your studies do come first..
4. parents - the i-am-proud-of-your-maturity words. yet, they seemed rather.. surprised. i don't think they expected me to drop out.
5. God - *silence*

then finally. the assistant director, judy or julie or jody or something la, talked to juu and me.. she told us the plot and i was like OH MY GOSH! SOOOOO NICE LA! it's like from e bible!!!! and in future, practices won't clash with MEP and with choir!

what's more, the jody woman said tt if juu and i go for workshop on thurs and fri, and manage to impress the directors enough during e workshop, we'll get promoted back to lead roles! oh ya i didnt mention. the thurs and fri workshop is for chorus. so if juu and i don't get our leads back, we're quitting and joining back choir. haha. sorry. just tt i'd rather be in choir than chorus. (O:

ANYWAYYYYYYY there are so many many factors which are in the way...
1. miss tsien has to excuse me after the test
2. miss tham has to excuse me for choir on fri
3. i have to get back a lead role!!!!!!!!!! hahaha. i dun think can la. i can't act.

if all these manage to fall into place.. i trust tt it is God's will that i take part in this thing. if not.. well. it's also His will and i will be at peace.

anyway. whatever it is.. it's quite stupid of me to not just go for the workshop for leads which was ysterday today and tmr RIGHT?! sighs. put myself through soo much trouble.. *rolls eyes.

oh my! my mom has DIARRHOEA and she's describing her poo to me! hahaha. how gross.

and have you guys seen my class?! it's like a freaking SHRINE to love.! i can't even get through my own door! and the whole darn thing is SO PINK.

okok whatever. i'm going to study now. must manage time wisely. must do well. must must must! you also must. yup. i am praying for you all!

okokokokokok bye!
(sorry ah. quite ranty... waste space only...)