hello all!!

yay we're finally meeting this friday:D

anyway my point of blogging again is because of this inspirational testimony i heard today. it left me quite in awe so i shall share my awe with you all(:

a few years back i met this girl who was working in SYFC..okay it wasnt a girl it was a young woman of 20 plus who was going to get married already haha. when she was 19, she was offered this super prestigious music scholarship to study in some uni in London (cant rmbr which). it was fully paid for and encompassed everything she could want. music was her interest, her talent, her passion, and the music scholarship was a total dream come true. plus, her family wasnt very well off either. 

BUT after much consideration, she turned it down.

her reasons: 1. she was afraid the scholarship would get to her head and she'd become proud about it.

2. she was afraid music would become her idol 

3. she wanted to serve in SYFC and if she went overseas she wouldnt have that opportunity.

so she declined the offer and went to study sociology in NUS. 

anyway during that period of time when she could have been overseas, something happened in her family that needed her help. if she hadnt, um i dont exactly know what would have happened, but she was glad she was in singapore to be with her family. 

so that testimony struck chords in my heart today and the echoes of it are still reverberating. i mean, the music scholarship was everything she could ever want yet she turned it down because she didnt want anything to tempt her from her relationship with God. 

FAITH.

she didnt want to take up the offer because she was afraid she'd become proud.

HUMILITY.

she didnt regret not taking up the scholarship because she'd rather be serving God in SYFC and be with her family.

SACRIFICE. 

i'm just awed by her decisions. cause apparently everyone around her that time was like WHAT you didnt take up that scholarship! it may have been foolishness in the eyes of the world, but it sure wasnt in God's eyes. today she's happily married, a full-time mom and expecting her second kid((:

i'm glad for her. 

that testimony left me thinking about my priorities- do i strive to please God or to gain accomplishments for myself? its so hard to do the former, especially when the world will point fingers at you and label you as foolish/unconventional/irrational/stupid. 

but i guess ultimately, what the world thinks of you shouldnt bother you at all..

"for has not God made foolish the wisdom of the world?" (1 Cor 1:20) &

"the wisdom of the world is foolishness in God's sight." (1 Cor 3:19)

well i hope this testimony will be an inspiration to you guys as much as it was to me- evidence that God DOES bless those who step out in faith,holding on to nothing else but Him; that God will seem even more real to us if only we are willing we take the first leap.

i really admire that girl.

anyway i hope all your prelim results were okay? even if they arent, dont worry cause you've got an empathizer here whose prelim results arent gonna be! hahaha so anytime you wanna rant about how you could have done better, call me cause i can rant with you and we'll rant until we're satisfied(: 

hahaha alright liverpool's playing stoke city right now i'm off to watch! :D

SEE YOU ALL FRIDAY!

love

cheryl

CHERYL! IM FREE FOR A DATE!!! hahaha.

and omg my sentiments exactly. i hate how im so complacent because i always tell myself ib exams have no kick, dont need to study and still can do relatively well and stuff but then i know i have to study but this stupid pride of mine gets to me all the time and then when i finally decide to study i start stressing. i barely make sense i know, but then again, did i ever make that much sense? haha.

and yeah, i don't talk to any of my classmates bout God either.. its kinda. strange. and i'm really guilty of pushing God away, almost the entire year or more so Cheryl i'm in a much worse situation than you. how do you ever get out of this 'my walk with God is so crappy i wanna live a life of worship but i just sit around and not do anything bout it save for some days when i decide that maybe i should try harder' cycle?! somebody help): which reminds me, lets have another crapbag cell meeting!

okay i should be studying for chem now.. got a paper tmr, my last paper! but great, i've gotta go to the doctor for this blood clot in my toe thats been there for more than 1 half months and it didnt bug me till this week when it started hurting and lo-and-behold i cant walk properly now. great.

SEE YOU ALL SOON, and if you guys want dinner, you're more than welcome to come over and i'll ask my mommy to cook something realllyyy nice! if she doesnt mind of course. haha

<3 dee

hello!!!

my prelims just ended yesterday and they were BAD. seriously. i'd never felt so bad after an exam in my life especially for math! i read this qns wrongly and got 10 marks minused straightaway:( plus i made a ton of mistakes i could have avoided. it doesnt help either that math is my best subject and best hope of doing well. sigh.

i think God's trying to tell me something. how i shouldnt be proud and over-confident and trusting in myself so much. i'm not proud of this, but i marginalised God throughout prelims. sort of pushed Him out of the picture. and i'm not sure what my motivations for studying are anymore. it seems so long ago that i once used to think about doing well for His glory.. 

haha you know what.i think i have a love-hate relationship with myself. i'm so self-centred, yet there are so many things i wanna change about myself. and i miss the days when i was closer to God. i hate the way i dont seem to have much faith in Him anymore. 

oh oh and i MISS YOU GUYS. 

hahaha i realised this entry is just random spurts of whatever's running through my head now. i'm seriously stuck as to which course to apply to in uni. i cant really imagine myself in any course in uni. haha which is worrying right? i guess i really wont mind doing law cause it seems interesting, but i dont think i have the caliba for it..i think i'll most likely end up in the banking/finance/accountancy/management sector. unless i go overseas to do occupational therapy or something. 

rawr i dontknow!! and i need to know soon cause i need to start applying for overseas unis in case i dont get into anything here. 

sighh i'm confused. 

and as stuck as mud:/

i really miss talking to you guys. i dont really talk to my classmates about deep stuff i.e. things that really concern me cause it'll be linked to spiritual stuff which they dont know about:/ 

so why arent you doing anything about it cheryl?

i cant answer that): i suck i know. 

on a lighter note, i'm happy cause today there was no school and i spent the whole day downloading nice songs and videos into my ipod((: i've got gymnastics videoclips of nastia liukin and shawn johnson(: woots! and a fernando torres song which cracked me up when i first heard it. hahaha. 

hope to see you guys SOON! i've got no school next tuesday who's free for a date?? haha. 

take care and dont burn yourselves out studying k! 

to nana dee tessa and april, PRESS ON(:

love

cheryl  

 

<3

hello everyone!
just as liza, said, i miss all of you guys):
PLEASE we MUST meet up next week OKAY?

anyway, i'm still in the midst of papers and it's not been going great thanks to worrying bout uni applications while having papers.. but i just paused and reflected on how all of us are really blessed by God. Be it in our grades, being superwoman like kelly, we've all really got so much to be thankful for even if things in life arent going great.. and just as i lay in bed last night thinking, the lyrics of this song suddenly came to my mind out of no where, so just read it as a reminder of God's grace, God's love, God's faithfulness and how He truly deserves everything we can offer to him in worship for all that He has seen us through. Even when we're down, guess we still have things to give thanks for, even the simplest things of a roof over our heads!

You are the peace that guards my heart
My help in times of need
You are the hope that leads me on
And brings me to my knees
For there I find You waiting
And there I find release
So with all my heart I’ll worship
And unto You I’ll sing

For You alone deserve all glory
For You alone deserve all praise
Father we worship and adore You
Father we long to see Your face
For You alone deserve all glory
For You alone deserve all praise
Father we love You
And we worship You this day.

and if you guys got time, go to godtube and search '99 balloons' and watch.. some video my cell leader shared with us last week. really touching.

dee(:

hello friends. i have not seen you all for the longest longest time, even though some of you exist studying in the same school as i! haha. anyway, after the rj, hwachong, ib and whatever other school people finish their prelim papers, we all go out to dinner okay! i think nana finishes last, on the 22nd, so we can have dinner that weekend or something okay! i miss you guys :(

to the ac people: hope results went okay today
to the rest of the people still taking exams: ALL THE BEST FRIENDS (: may God guide you through, and give you strength even to finish this lap!