i don't know about all of you, but i'll miss my school.

i was thinking of going on at length about things like not having to divide a one hour and forty minute break into 3 portions (forty for eating and talking to people, forty for IS rehearsal and twenty for inevitably wasting time) to maximise productivity, or not having to whine about how we fell asleep at 9 pm the day before and didn't do gp cos dance rehearsal was so exhausting, or... i am contradicting myself, aren't i.

so perhaps some of the things i've just mentioned don't sound particularly worth missing, but.. they are. at the expense of sounding sadistic there is some kind of collective joy in trials. i guess this only comes to pass when you've got a community around you who is going through the same situation, and who cares. i'm glad to have found that here, in ac. of course i don't mean my two years spent here have been nothing but trial after trial. there have been irreplaceable, joyous moments as well.

i guess the thing that makes leaving jc different from leaving mg is that this time, we know that the path ahead is no one else's but our own. apart from some of us who might end up in nus or ntu or smu together, the rest will find ourselves in different parts of the globe. and this time, there is no retreating into our comfortable cliques anymore. we're really growing up guys.

that said, it shouldn't scare us. we know the path ahead holds euphoria and disappointment in the same breath, but we also know that we are able to emerge victorious. "For I know the plans I have for you, says the Lord. Plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you a hope an a future." Jeremiah 29:11. Our God is able, He is mighty, He is faithful. :)

see you friday guys!

- char.

hello all!!

yay we're finally meeting this friday:D

anyway my point of blogging again is because of this inspirational testimony i heard today. it left me quite in awe so i shall share my awe with you all(:

a few years back i met this girl who was working in SYFC..okay it wasnt a girl it was a young woman of 20 plus who was going to get married already haha. when she was 19, she was offered this super prestigious music scholarship to study in some uni in London (cant rmbr which). it was fully paid for and encompassed everything she could want. music was her interest, her talent, her passion, and the music scholarship was a total dream come true. plus, her family wasnt very well off either. 

BUT after much consideration, she turned it down.

her reasons: 1. she was afraid the scholarship would get to her head and she'd become proud about it.

2. she was afraid music would become her idol 

3. she wanted to serve in SYFC and if she went overseas she wouldnt have that opportunity.

so she declined the offer and went to study sociology in NUS. 

anyway during that period of time when she could have been overseas, something happened in her family that needed her help. if she hadnt, um i dont exactly know what would have happened, but she was glad she was in singapore to be with her family. 

so that testimony struck chords in my heart today and the echoes of it are still reverberating. i mean, the music scholarship was everything she could ever want yet she turned it down because she didnt want anything to tempt her from her relationship with God. 

FAITH.

she didnt want to take up the offer because she was afraid she'd become proud.

HUMILITY.

she didnt regret not taking up the scholarship because she'd rather be serving God in SYFC and be with her family.

SACRIFICE. 

i'm just awed by her decisions. cause apparently everyone around her that time was like WHAT you didnt take up that scholarship! it may have been foolishness in the eyes of the world, but it sure wasnt in God's eyes. today she's happily married, a full-time mom and expecting her second kid((:

i'm glad for her. 

that testimony left me thinking about my priorities- do i strive to please God or to gain accomplishments for myself? its so hard to do the former, especially when the world will point fingers at you and label you as foolish/unconventional/irrational/stupid. 

but i guess ultimately, what the world thinks of you shouldnt bother you at all..

"for has not God made foolish the wisdom of the world?" (1 Cor 1:20) &

"the wisdom of the world is foolishness in God's sight." (1 Cor 3:19)

well i hope this testimony will be an inspiration to you guys as much as it was to me- evidence that God DOES bless those who step out in faith,holding on to nothing else but Him; that God will seem even more real to us if only we are willing we take the first leap.

i really admire that girl.

anyway i hope all your prelim results were okay? even if they arent, dont worry cause you've got an empathizer here whose prelim results arent gonna be! hahaha so anytime you wanna rant about how you could have done better, call me cause i can rant with you and we'll rant until we're satisfied(: 

hahaha alright liverpool's playing stoke city right now i'm off to watch! :D

SEE YOU ALL FRIDAY!

love

cheryl

CHERYL! IM FREE FOR A DATE!!! hahaha.

and omg my sentiments exactly. i hate how im so complacent because i always tell myself ib exams have no kick, dont need to study and still can do relatively well and stuff but then i know i have to study but this stupid pride of mine gets to me all the time and then when i finally decide to study i start stressing. i barely make sense i know, but then again, did i ever make that much sense? haha.

and yeah, i don't talk to any of my classmates bout God either.. its kinda. strange. and i'm really guilty of pushing God away, almost the entire year or more so Cheryl i'm in a much worse situation than you. how do you ever get out of this 'my walk with God is so crappy i wanna live a life of worship but i just sit around and not do anything bout it save for some days when i decide that maybe i should try harder' cycle?! somebody help): which reminds me, lets have another crapbag cell meeting!

okay i should be studying for chem now.. got a paper tmr, my last paper! but great, i've gotta go to the doctor for this blood clot in my toe thats been there for more than 1 half months and it didnt bug me till this week when it started hurting and lo-and-behold i cant walk properly now. great.

SEE YOU ALL SOON, and if you guys want dinner, you're more than welcome to come over and i'll ask my mommy to cook something realllyyy nice! if she doesnt mind of course. haha

<3 dee

hello!!!

my prelims just ended yesterday and they were BAD. seriously. i'd never felt so bad after an exam in my life especially for math! i read this qns wrongly and got 10 marks minused straightaway:( plus i made a ton of mistakes i could have avoided. it doesnt help either that math is my best subject and best hope of doing well. sigh.

i think God's trying to tell me something. how i shouldnt be proud and over-confident and trusting in myself so much. i'm not proud of this, but i marginalised God throughout prelims. sort of pushed Him out of the picture. and i'm not sure what my motivations for studying are anymore. it seems so long ago that i once used to think about doing well for His glory.. 

haha you know what.i think i have a love-hate relationship with myself. i'm so self-centred, yet there are so many things i wanna change about myself. and i miss the days when i was closer to God. i hate the way i dont seem to have much faith in Him anymore. 

oh oh and i MISS YOU GUYS. 

hahaha i realised this entry is just random spurts of whatever's running through my head now. i'm seriously stuck as to which course to apply to in uni. i cant really imagine myself in any course in uni. haha which is worrying right? i guess i really wont mind doing law cause it seems interesting, but i dont think i have the caliba for it..i think i'll most likely end up in the banking/finance/accountancy/management sector. unless i go overseas to do occupational therapy or something. 

rawr i dontknow!! and i need to know soon cause i need to start applying for overseas unis in case i dont get into anything here. 

sighh i'm confused. 

and as stuck as mud:/

i really miss talking to you guys. i dont really talk to my classmates about deep stuff i.e. things that really concern me cause it'll be linked to spiritual stuff which they dont know about:/ 

so why arent you doing anything about it cheryl?

i cant answer that): i suck i know. 

on a lighter note, i'm happy cause today there was no school and i spent the whole day downloading nice songs and videos into my ipod((: i've got gymnastics videoclips of nastia liukin and shawn johnson(: woots! and a fernando torres song which cracked me up when i first heard it. hahaha. 

hope to see you guys SOON! i've got no school next tuesday who's free for a date?? haha. 

take care and dont burn yourselves out studying k! 

to nana dee tessa and april, PRESS ON(:

love

cheryl  

 

<3

hello everyone!
just as liza, said, i miss all of you guys):
PLEASE we MUST meet up next week OKAY?

anyway, i'm still in the midst of papers and it's not been going great thanks to worrying bout uni applications while having papers.. but i just paused and reflected on how all of us are really blessed by God. Be it in our grades, being superwoman like kelly, we've all really got so much to be thankful for even if things in life arent going great.. and just as i lay in bed last night thinking, the lyrics of this song suddenly came to my mind out of no where, so just read it as a reminder of God's grace, God's love, God's faithfulness and how He truly deserves everything we can offer to him in worship for all that He has seen us through. Even when we're down, guess we still have things to give thanks for, even the simplest things of a roof over our heads!

You are the peace that guards my heart
My help in times of need
You are the hope that leads me on
And brings me to my knees
For there I find You waiting
And there I find release
So with all my heart I’ll worship
And unto You I’ll sing

For You alone deserve all glory
For You alone deserve all praise
Father we worship and adore You
Father we long to see Your face
For You alone deserve all glory
For You alone deserve all praise
Father we love You
And we worship You this day.

and if you guys got time, go to godtube and search '99 balloons' and watch.. some video my cell leader shared with us last week. really touching.

dee(:

hello friends. i have not seen you all for the longest longest time, even though some of you exist studying in the same school as i! haha. anyway, after the rj, hwachong, ib and whatever other school people finish their prelim papers, we all go out to dinner okay! i think nana finishes last, on the 22nd, so we can have dinner that weekend or something okay! i miss you guys :(

to the ac people: hope results went okay today
to the rest of the people still taking exams: ALL THE BEST FRIENDS (: may God guide you through, and give you strength even to finish this lap!

hello everybody!

i was actually gonna go off to study but when i popped by here i decided to blog!

dee are you alright, cheer up. :/ i guess things do get screwed up, that's the way life is, but in the larger scheme of things all these temporal troubles like stupid music teachers don't matter. it is important, no doubt, but God is in control and whatever happens will be alright. He knows what He's doing. you know, i only came across this phrase recently - He knows what He's doing - but i realised it does make so much sense. we always talk about how God is in control and He has good plans for us and sometimes we get desensitized because its been said so often, but when i heard that phrase i found that it captures the wisdom and grandness of God. He is sure of how He works, although we aren't. He is the boss and the world is his company. He knows how to run it and how things should go, so we should just trust the boss cos we're mere staff. (: so dee, take heart. (: every time i see you i get reminded of how you aren't always doing well, but its so hard to ask you and get to the real heart of it all. but its okay, i'll pray... (: take care!

as time has gone on i've realised that i am completely satisfied with just those couple of people who are my pillars. they're enough for me. (: sometimes people get so caught up in being popular or having a wide social circle they fail to realise that the measure of friendship isn't found in the quantity, but the quality. the depth of love far outweighs the sparse but broad affection seen in so many relationships. i would go to the ends of the earth for those i love. (: but i guess why i even bother to reach out to others is cos i feel like God wants me to show them His love. cos we are called to be salt and light to the world, like cities on a hill, like stars in the sky that cannot help but shine His light unto others. so in the end, just be yourself. (: keep those who matter close, and only use God's love to reach out to the rest. otherwise you'll feel tired or it'll be for the wrong reasons. but hey, that's just me.

i have prelimsssss to study for. so i shall be off! sorry if i talked so much nonsense, i hope it somehow helps someone.

ok byebye!

love,

char.

i wish i were in acjc. i hate my school): the school's just got a serious problem.. first my EE gets screwed over then today i find out that my practical recording 2 months ago was never recorded cause of the teachers' absentmindedness and the settings of the recorder were wrong.. he even said just yesterday that i dont have to worry bout my practical cause its all done and recorded and he gave me 20/20 for my mid years. then i was bitching bout it to my other music teacher who told me to ask him infront of her and his responses were just retarded and she's like 'i pity you' and i havent prac piano in 2 months and im probably gonna hevt o record it next week cause if i drag it on its gonna clash with my lit oral exam. how's that my fault): its really. frustrating and depressing and im suddenly so stressed my prelims are in 6 or 7 weeks i think and i havent even started studying and ive barely started studying for my lit exam too):

remember how i used to complain last year like how i was such a loner in school and stuff and how badly school sucks. i think im back to that state again. just way worse. bleh. im in such a ihatetheworldeveryonejustscrewoffanddontdisturbme mood maybe thats why im ranting here because i dont even know where else to rant im going mad ): pah.

okay my next post shall be happier. i promise. if its sad i wont post it. ha. okay study hard people. dont be like me and just give up on everything this year. not the smartest thing to do after 11 years of education.

The broken clock is a comfort,
it helps me sleep tonight
Maybe it can stop tomorrow
from stealing all my time
I am here still waiting
though i still have my doubts
I am damaged at best,
like you've already figured out

I'm falling apart,
I'm barely breathing
With a broken heart that's still beating
In the pain there is healing
In your name I find meaning
So I'm holdin' on, I'm holdin' on, I'm holdin' on
I'm barely holdin' on to you

The broken locks were a warning
you got inside my head
I tried my best to be guarded,
I'm an open book instead
I still see your reflection inside of my eyes
That are looking for a purpose,
they're still looking for life

I'm hangin' on another day
Just to see what you will throw my way
And I'm hanging on
to the words you say
You said that I will be ok

dee

MURIEL GRACES THIS BLOG WITH HER MAGNIFICENT PRESENCE!(:

hello everybody!!!!!!
muriel here!
i haven't written here for so long, i thought i'd forget the username and pw. ARENT YOU PROUD OF ME THAT I REMEMBERED?!(: anyway i must be mad, i'm updating this at 9.14am. i hope i work up the resolve to actually GO to church later. haha. i'm cramping): dee passed her deesease to me.

anyway! i suppose i must talk about prelims since they are imminent right. (nureen, google it if you dont know what it means.) all the best to everybodayy(: i'm quite sure you'll pull through, and even if your results arent stellar, fear not for there's still the final one which is A'S!! i remember o's, when we were all there together in the same place, pushing each other on and, especially for me, helping each other out. i must say i benefitted very much from this, for i was daft and didn't know anything at all. (not that now i know alot still. hahaha) anyway, i think my point is that, though physically we may no longer be in the same school and all that, you are the one's whom i'll always think of and pray for during exam times. i don't think you're ever really far away, coz at least you're always in my <3.>

okay so anyhows. do work hard everyone, and don't give up(: i love you all truckloads. let's have a get together soon! i think it might be wise to wait till prelims are over though. but we'll have a nice happy fun day with loads of junk food (and cucumber sticks for the anorexic ones coughvoncough) and we'll ketchup then yea? till next time,

MUCHMUCHMUCHMUCH<3<3<3
and
GOD BLESS(:

hello friends! how have you all been doing??
i know i've kinda been missing in action recently, but it's not my fault! with frisbee like bout 4 times a week, it's no wonder that i don't even have time to study much less catch up with you friends! but i promise, after prelims, i will be back in action, and you all will be able to enjoy my company once again! (:
you know my throat feels terrible right now. my sister says it's some lympnox thing or something that sounds like that. somebody who does bio go check it out! it hurts to even swallow water maybe. ah well.

hope everyone's not too stressed studying for prelims and all. i know i am. but well. another milestone to go then we'd all be in uni and on the path to our careers! haha. which reminds me i've yet to know what i want to study. but i know that i'd probably just want to marry some rich guy and start my own business. like a cafe or something! haha. but ethel's classmates were talking, and they think that i'd end up being some power career woman, who doesn't want to marry my boyfriend because i want to focus on my career, and i wouldn't want kids because they'd just be a distraction and interfere with everything. haha oh well.

anyway have fun friends. i must go do tutorials.

pictures!

this is mainly cos of nureen, cos i don't like facebook and have been ignoring her reminders. haha! was thinking of updating about my life but perhaps another day. haha. procrastinator extraordinaire

- char!

HELLO FRIENDS(:

i havent seen some of you in the looooonngest time): ELIZA AND CRYS where have you guys gone! haha we just finished block tests last wk so i'm taking a well-deserved(i think) break before starting to mug for prelims. blocks went fine i guess? bio was surprisingly manageable hahaha i think my school's bio dept finally decided to be more humane.

anyway i went for the psc career fair on sat and saw denise tessa debbie and mich yeo(: i think i might be interested in MOE/MOH/MCYS/MFA? grahh i dunno. but i eliminated the monetary authority of singapore and PUB and NParks and SAF and URA. at least its a start! 

i like being a student. you dont have to care about money matters or people backstabbing you or getting bonuses/promotions or whether or not you'll be fired tomorrow or smth. compared with the stress of workload school stress is a mere fraction! hahaha i'm talking like i'm 60. whoa cheryl dont age too soon. but i wish i could stay a student forever! i was just thinking the other day what my greatest ambition in life is, and here's what i thought of: (it's a multi-step process hehe)

1. working as a teacher of any sort for a while

2. getting married to a guy who earns substantial income when i'm 24/25 (aha dont ask me what substantial means)  

3. having 3 kids

4. retiring as a teacher and becoming a stayathome mom

5. giving part-time tuition/piano lessons

6. spend the rest of my life catching up with friends, raising my kids and doing things i love:D

ahhhhhhh. 

LIFE IS GOOD(:

hmmm i was just contemplating whether or not to publish this post but i decided i should since nobody else reads this blog except us right? i hope. alright i'm off now! all the best mugging for prelims!!!

LOVE

cheryl

  

acjc choir concert!

in this pic nic is missing!
in this pic grace and char are missing!
ah finally, got them.

to mu and nic,
I'M SO PROUD OF YOU 2!!!! (: YOU GUYS WERE AWESOMMEEEE (yes esp with your weird noise making abilities haha!) it was a really great concert, hope you guys had lots of fun doing it

love, dee who once again revives the blog.
WHERE DID EVERYBODY GO!

why is our blog terribly dead):

well okay this hols kinda sucked for me, esp when i practically met up with none of you, save for li mu and crys (but cause i see crys at cell).. anyway. are we going for love mg together? nu wanted to go right!(:

sigh i've got exams tmr, (Thanks to whoever wrote the last post) and yes, be shocked, but i have not been studying.. started on fri night at 1130 pm heh. i guess that's why i'm posting this. to just tell you guys to keep on going no matter how sucky school may seem, how busy you may get, how monotonous the student life may be.. we've got each other, but more importantly we've got God!

really, take it from me, my walk totally went down the past 6 months and i've been in a huge ditch or worse this bottomless pit the entire past 6 months. trying to get out to no avail so much so i gave up but im trying to get back out at least. so i hope since most of you are in ac and see eacho ther more often you'd be able to help each other along and encourage each other yeah(:

i really miss the days we had worship and prayer everyday together in sec 4. it feels reaalllyyy long ago doesnt it. remember last year we had a crapbag prayer/worship gathering? lets do that sometime again soon(:

till then, hope all of you will endure the gruelling 6 months ahead, with work and more work and more work and applications and CVs and all those kinda stuff.. dont forget to celebrate birthdays! almost half of us arent 18 yet hahaha.

oh oh guess what. i went to mambo that day hahahaha. we should all go clubbing one day (although its really not very fun) but we can do our stupid own cool crapbag thing and heck what the world thinks! btw i think out of all of you, i can imagine crys at mambo the most. doing her own dance moves going high on the dance floor even without a sip of alcohol. haha.

love you guys!
denise

to the non-ac crapbags:
all the best for your mids! (:

HAPPY BIRTHDAY DEAR SARAE HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU! :D

it's been a joy knowing you all these years(:

we love you lots! have a great 18th!

HAPPPPYYY 18THH BIRRTHDAY CHAR!!
hope you had a blast today and we shall all have dinner sometime soon! love you lots!

go my blog!
http://justslide-.livejournal.com
(:
love you times ten million
- char.

i miss you friends ):

happy birthday april!

HAPPY 18th BIRTHDAY APRIL DEAREST(:

Although we've all not seen you in ages, just know that we love you and miss you very much!
We're all proud of you for everything you've done, and God has definitely moulded you into an amazingly wonderful talented sweet pretty young lady with such a great character and you will always be a dear friend to all of us. Keep your head high when the going gets tough for you are never alone dear, remember that(:

Take care, study hard, and keep on shining love.
Hope to see you soon and we shall take pictures, you've avoided the camera for too long!

Love always, the crapbags.